For a while, I felt that I would one day find a job – namely a 9-5 – where I would make a magic sum of money and be able to 1.) save, and 2.) one day get a mortgage in my own name.
The reality is, like many people in the area I was working in (I worked first in admin, and later communications) even on the higher pay bands, where I was based, the mortgage company would not have given me a second look on that wage, unless I was buying with a partner and we could combine our salary (and even then, this would have been tricky).
For me it was an easy decision to paint with watercolour in the Bi in the 2000s™ illustrative series, for a lot of different reasons. I think for me, I was drawn to watercolour paint in particular because of its fluid and subtle nature, giving the artist infinite ways to explore colour, from its most faint, to its most distinct. I also find the fluid water component of watercolour a very calming and very natural element to work with, and I find the results often very moving, for that very reason. I think every artistic medium has its own qualities, and this is just one of the paints that I love working with.
Like everyone, I’m trying my best. My business is relatively new, every step of the way is a huge learning curve, and I’m really trying to put a sustainable and ethical foot forward from the very beginning of the launch of the merchandise products that I’ve created, which I’m approaching in the following ways:
So you want to support LGBTQ+? You’ve bought your bacon, lettuce and tomato rainbow flag sandwich from M&S, you’ve bought your apple with a rainbow flag sticker for lunch from Pink Lady, you’ve bought your coffee in a rainbow coloured coffee holder from Starbucks, you’ve bought your rainbow trainers from Nike, you’ve been there, you’ve spent your money, you’ve got the proverbial t-shirt (from adidas). And how do you feel now? Do you feel proud to be you? Proud to support the LGBTQ+ community? Do you feel proud to embrace the side of you, that doesn’t necessarily fit into the hetero-normative narrative that we all have to love the same way? Or do you feel like a few trans-national corporations have just burnt a large hole in your wallet, you’ve continued to contribute to the global capitalist economy, and you’re still afraid to kiss someone that’s the same gender as you in public, for fear of public shame and discrimination?
About a year and a half after I lost my dad to cancer, and I find myself in a really good place in a lot of ways. I’m working in a field I love, I’m doing what I believe in, I’m campaigning for social change, and I’m really happy in a lot of ways.
As an entrepreneur, one of the questions I find myself asking is, what is motivating me to do what I do? Is it partly for the money? What am I aiming for in the future? If I do get rich, then what next?